I cried and then I smiled. After I wrote my post yesterday, I couldn’t hold my tears back anymore. I cried a lot and I mean, a lot. For my luck, it was when I was alone in the house and nobody saw me. I told my sister though. And she immediately told me that she was going to come. But then, when I was eating with the family I didn’t feel as bad as before. There weren’t all of them in the house, but I felt more comfortable, I think. While I was waiting for my sister to pick me up, I stayed in the living room talking with my brother, I got to see my nephew who is omg so big, and it wasn’t so bad. Then my sister came to pick me up with my niece and great-niece to go shopping, but it was late, so we only went to one store. I didn’t buy anything. And then we went to Starbucks, and I felt cool. I also fell in love with my great-niece because she is so yummy, and so happy, she is always smiling and I think she likes me, I think so.
This has all been weird, overwhelming and intimidating for me but I’m sure it will get better.
PS. I think you should congratulate me because last night I slept without the tv on, in almost complete darkness. And I wasn’t scared!! Can you believe that? The vibe wasn’t as bad as it is in my room, I don’t know why. Ahh I felt so good (: