I never use makeup, just eyeliner. I don’t blow dry, streighten or curl my hair, just my bangs. I only wear boots and rarely vans or ballerinas, never ever heels. I only wear black, grey and white, very simple clothes. I never paint my nails.
For years, I’ve been like this. Maybe it’s because I’m a freak when it comes to keeping my face and hair healthy. Maybe it’s because I’m just simple like that.
I’ve never been girly nor wanted to be. I don’t mean that I look like a boy, but I’ve never been into pink( even though I dyed my hair ends hot pink once), skirts, heels or looking that femenine. I always wore a black t-shirt with jeans and converse. I’m not like that anymore, but I’m still pretty simple.
But the thing is that, as good as my skin is, as not that bad as my hair is, as comfortable and as much as I love to dress and be simple, these things are not being enough lately. I don’t know if its that I’ve been watching a lot of beauty gurus on youtube or that I’m simply growing up. But suddenly, I want to look pretty and polished. I still want to be simple because there is nothing more that I love than simplicity, but I want my hair and face to look good, I want to dress more elegant, sometimes I even want to wear heels (WHAAAT? That is insanely weird for me.)
And I’m not saying that I can’t be pretty if I’m not like that, like society wants you to. But I don’t even know if I like wanting to be like that, I don’t know if it fits my personality. Maybe I’m too scared to change and grow up.
What I want to tell you anyway, is don’t be scared to change a little bit. We should not change to meet society standards. But if you feel nice looking a certain way, then do it. There is nothing wrong to wanting to feel pretty as long as you know that you are already pretty and that no matter what your shape is, how you dress, how you walk, how you speak, what your color is, you can feel beautiful because you truly are.
I will be open to new things and styles, as long as I feel great, and as long as I do it for me.