Even though I don’t like to think like that anymore, this week has not been the best. It has been failure after failure. I’ve been feeling insecure, crushed and just not good enough.
The last photo I did, “A Woman’s Place” was supposed to be for my sister’s kitchen because she personally asked for it. I thought after all the critics that she told me while I was doing it, it would end up in a way that she would like it. Well..even though I did, she didn’t. It hurt me so much, and I know that I’m going to face that a lot of times in my life, but some part of me felt like I failed. I think it was the fact that we were so excited for it that hearing her said that, made me feel sad. Then I told my father that she didn’t like it and he practically told me that he didn’t like that much either. You can’t even imagine how I felt at that moment. Heartbroken. If it hurts hearing people saying bad things about something that you’ve work hard for and that you love, it’s even harder to hear it from your family. I know it’s relative but I really thought that it was pretty and that they were going to like it. I still love it anyway, I’m not going to let a few opinions change that, but it hurts. So I guess I won’t see that one on any wall, for now.
I think that their opinions really affected me though. This photo “Crushed Dreams”, is my third failure this week. Before this one, I tried to make two photos, they didn’t work at all. I didn’t know what I was doing and when I was going to edit them they just wasn’t good, I wasn’t feeling it at all. But I still managed to do this one from today, but I’m not very happy with it either. I’m trying to make a new one each week to keep practicing and improving but the fact that I have only my room to work on and only two dresses doesn’t help my imagination flow.
I didn’t want to sound negative at all, these things are not going to make my week necessarily bad, they are just little obstacles that you have to learn to deal with.
There are going to be a lot of people in your life that won’t like what you do, but if only one person does, that means that other millions will too. Don’t let them bring you down and stop you from what you want to achieve. Work hard. And one failure is only going to be one of many, at least it prepares you to work harder for your next project.
You are capable of more than you know. Choose a goal that seems right for you and strive to be the best, however hard the path. Aim high. Behave honorably. Prepare to be alone at times, and to endure failure. Persist! The world needs all you can give.
How Do You Deal With Failures?