Let’s pretend we’re all friends for a moment (not that we’re not but you know what I mean) and let me tell you about the amazing time I had last night. Because honestly I feel like I’m losing my best friend more everyday and I need to tell someone.
Yesterday, I was feeling all kinds of emotions. But most of all I was feeling stressed. Incredibly stressed. I kept jumping and dancing to try to shake it off like Taylor Swift. It wasn’t working.
My cousins, brother and I had planned to go to the fair yesterday as our last hang out. I invited of course my best friend and a friend from high school that I hadn’t seen since school. As a friend you would think that the one who is going to go is the one that has been through thick and thin for seven years with you, but no. It was the other one, the one that I barely talk to.
Apparently my best friend couldn’t because of money, transportation and because his boyfriend was staying at his house. I understand all of this. What I can’t understand is the fact that you had two months since my birthday to visit me and spend time with his best friend who he knows is leaving and he decides to come and say goodbye the same day I leave? No. I thought I was angry. But worse, I’m just hurt. Disappointed.
That and all the stress from everything had me going crazy. But last night was everything I could ask for.
My brother, neighbor (who’s like a brother), cousins, my high school friend and I went to the fair, got on almost everything, including the ring of fire which woooo left me voiceless, we laughed, screamed, sang, got dizzy, enjoyed the bumping cars like we were kids, watched how I got scared at the ferris wheel, and had the best time ever.
When I was there I forgot about absolutely everything. I forgot the thing with my bf, forgot everything I was feeling, and forgot that I was leaving. I didn’t even think if I was having a good time or not. I guess that’s what happens when you ARE having a good time.
It’s funny because I told my brother that I wanted to get drunk (which is very rare of me to say because I dont drink) to forget everything and have a good night and we didn’t have a single drop of alcohol in our systems and had a better time than if we would have.
All I can say is that I needed this night. Not just because Im leaving. I needed this from a long time ago. I’m more than grateful, I love my people.
PS. Procrastination level I still haven’t finished my suitcases…I mean, isn’t that the most tedious thing to do, specially when you have to make your whole life fit into 2 suitcases?
Talk to you soon, I’m going to go and enjoy my last day here.
Thanks for being there.